Sunday, November 8, 2009

About a friend...

Whom I haven’t spoken about until now is the Blue Genius, my medium’s very special friend. Though Thesius likes him, I like him even more. His attitude is head on right and the guy is pretty unique and interesting in his own ways. What I like about him is that he is not the usual desperate-clit-licking guy, very similar to Thesius and myself. No wonder we like him.
Anyways, since Thesius is going through his own plethora of pain, he talks his heart out to BG, and at some moments even I am unable to control his sea of emotional outflow. What happened a couple of days back was while Thesius was chatting with BG online, BG gave some important targets for Thesius as under, ditto as extracted from the chat transcript.

From BG to Thesius:
1 - I won’t utter negative words about my work or the opportunities it gives me for exposure....
2- I won’t undersell myself or my abilities...
3-I won’t work just because I want moolah... but cuz i want to learn enuf to be independent somday..
4- I won’t program my brain that I am not worthy of love of people...
5-I will complete my novel and be the great Marcus that I aspire in my dreams and vision

I love the last point and specifically for the reason that maybe BG thinks tomorrow I and Thesius will be one soul. I don’t know how far will this materialize. Ideally I would like us to be separate because we both complete a circle currently, though, as always, I would like to dominate.
So right on BG, I believe we both are trying to achieve one motive, to uplift Thesius in his battles and I thank you for that. Despite I liked you from the time you met Thesius, I am developing a respect for you which is really something and I think you and Thesius are going to kick it together. Thank you BG, for your efforts and just being there.

Though you and Thesius talk whenever you have time, maybe sometime we can kick Thesius out of his consciousness and we have a drink and chat mano-e-mano. What say BG?

Friday, November 6, 2009


I am an extremist. Sometimes I regret that killing is illegal and at other times I fear having one night stands because I may fall in love with the girl the next morning.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

My medium

My medium is falling through a mental pit of being the most pessimistic creature I have ever known. Well, he may not be the most pessimistic, but I sure think so since I read his mind a lot. Its been almost a month now and I havent re-started on my novel.
I dont deny that he isn't a good person, but why is he so good to people who do not actually matter much to him, is something which I fail to understand (despite knowing the depths of this mind). Dude, you are doing everything possible to make good something which wasn't yours in the first place. Happiness is something which is not meant for you to find out. Happiness is something which will happen to you... but through me. So you just have to ensure that you allow me to takeover and complete my damn novel!
Just chill and go through this hell you're going. Just two words for you... never surrender. By surrendering you lose anyways. Even if you have a 0.1% chance of winning, always fight for it. You might just win. If you don't, there is something more which has lost its meaning over a period of time... Glory. Understand this Theseus... I shall call u that, cause that's where your character should lie and that's where I want you to be, should you survive this war. I am always there Theseus. Dont you worry.