Saturday, October 30, 2010

Thoughts on...

Hypocrisy is the most obnoxious of all human vices.

Talking about and condemning corruption by reading newspapers is as good as a kid killing terrorists in a video game.

I have not considered anything more ridiculous than following cliché ways of societies forced forms of happiness.

Superstition has no place in the life of the brave.

Misunderstanding can cost you a lot; even rob you of your understanding for the future.

You cannot know the future, but you can determine how you want to be when it comes.

Friday, October 29, 2010

An update

Dear Readers,

My first novel is almost ready for a first revision (rewrite) and this should be done in 3 months. I am still thick of a name for it though. I think I need to get regular with my work now. Post I am done revising it, I will need a proofreader and my hunt for a global agent will be on. Writing a novel is truly difficult, but very rewarding to the soul. You go through all those pages and ask yourself, "I wrote that?"

Along with this, I am storyboarding on my second novel. Hope this one doesnt take too long though. Need your wishes. Keep reading and keep those emails and comments flowing - it is my lifeline.

Also, I have a twitter account now. If you wish to follow, just search for @marcushades. Although I must admit I am not very regular on it, I will be once I get more followers.



Monday, October 25, 2010

Ego and Self Respect

To have your self-respect intact, you must know two things: One; who you really are. Two; you never know enough. To keep your ego intact, you must know neither. – Marcus Hades

What is ego and what is self respect?
I believe there that ego and self respect are two very different attributes in an individual. But then again, they can also have a very thin line of difference in understanding it within themselves. Ego itself is very complex and self respect is fairly simple. But like all high attributes, ego is more common and self respect, rare.

As for all definitions, I can write pages on this, but I choose to be simple for this one. E for Ego, S for Self Respect.

E: It is ‘thinking’ you are superior, S: It is to ‘know’ you are sensible enough
E: Sensitive to self only, S: Sensitive to self as well as others concerned
E: ‘I don’t make mistakes.’ S: ‘I know I made a mistake. But I am wise enough to admit and fix it.’
E:  Negative to self growth via experiences, S: Positive to self growth via self realization
E: No respect for others (respect only for self), S: Respect for everyone, including self.
E: I am the best, S: I am good, but can get better
E: I am mature and know everything, S: I know what life is all about, but its less and I still have a lot to learn
E: Not disciplined; S: Disciplined
E: Arrogance; S: Dignity
E: Harsh and judgmental, S: Calm and intuitive

I believe ego is within all of us but sometimes, we choose it to dominate and cloud our other senses of reasoning, because it seems ‘more important’ than the other emotions. We all have a sense of everything – how others are and how we are. The moment the sense of who we are becomes more important and interferes with the sense of who others are, it is a play of the ego within us. This happens due to giving over importance to self than required and less importance to others than necessary. Ego is an exaggerated high estimate of oneself. When our ego is attacked, it usually results in anger.

Self respect on the other hand is not within all of us, as it is tough to find out that line of difference between ego and self respect. But it is the quality of a very reasonable and actual realization of one’s abilities and qualities, vis-√†-vis what others think of you. Self respect does not destroy the self and supports an individual during hard times, because it is always very reasonably self-controlled and calm and not instinctively temperamental. It knows the causes and the eventualities of its effects. It is never an exaggerated high estimate of the self, but a controlled form of a true insight. When our self-respect is hurt, it usually results in self-doubt followed by self-realisation.

When your ego is functioning, you will always see outwards. When the self respect is functioning, you will see more inwards and ask yourself important questions.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Education and Priorities

The only thing which education and society teach us is either to follow someone or something and appose someone or something. I see hardly any wisdom in this. Never do they teach one thing which is the most important: Thinking with your own mind and regarding your own situation. This is the most important because every positive person, situation and emotion is unique and nothing can be generalized as such. - Marcus Hades

If you want to see your future, simply pay attention to your priorities and whether they are in line with what you really want.  Your life will always take you where your priorities lie. – Marcus Hades


A stretched time ago once when I was hurt
I gathered myself and cleansed away the dirt
Now all time that came, came with care and comparison
And also unaware, born within me was an ounce of poison

I ran into someone and that someone was nice
But initially to believe in that someone, I was cold like ice
Fearful and doubtful I was all along, afraid to have melt;
But a happy existence I craved and love within me I felt

But the poison was within me, and it brewed well
No one could now hurt me, as I wreathed them to hell
But wicked the poison was and unaware it did grow
Now nothing more than the poison was for me to show

I collected it in a jar and placed it outside my home,
To make my foes drink from it, who suffered and moaned
One day that someone I loved came to my residence
Seeming welcoming drink; my poison, was swallowed in ignorance

Before I could prevent, and then to the Gods I let out a plea
Due to my poison, my lover I saw depart beneath a tree