Monday, July 19, 2010

Recent thoughts...

Sometimes in life, you will realize that the thing you hated doing most becomes your prime purpose, talent and priority in life. It becomes the reason what you were born to do.

Misjudgment is more often sprung out of habit than by the acts of others.

The ability to move on in any juncture of life is a hard-hitting determinant of the strongest, and sometimes, the weakest characteristics of your persona.

The intellect can for a trice silence, but never perceive, the magnitude of an emotion which the heart feels.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Practical Psychology 101 - The Super Ego

Most people who claim that extra continuous pride in their character and persona is not wrong all the time. But constantly along with blaming another, thinking of them as being a hypocrite, etc. etc… realize at some trice in their life that what they saw lacking in another, is what they actually lack in themselves. When people continue their life, they go through a series of changing attitudes – and that is common amongst all. Situations and times alter attitudes slightly, and that is considered normal - and sometimes is. Those changes are slightly fluctuating within a happy medium even for the recipients. But sometimes, drastic changes in attitude occur in people with a weak value and belief system - which actually change their belief and value systems. It is just that once such a person’s attitude changes, and then their character; they also find all possible ways and means to justify that change – within them, and then find it comfortable to mix well with people who belong to that similar changed attitude. It is like a super ego justifying the main ego which is dependent on a system, which first provides a mental gratification to fill up the gaps in ones life - however large or small those gaps maybe. Some people are consciously aware of these mental gaps and some are not. When the gaps are not filled mentally, or when the peak of this condition is reached, a person will go out of the way and also do things which they once considered as outrageous or incapable of doing because of their belief and value systems prevailing at a point. They will then justify that what they are doing is right, according to them. And some of them are so hopelessly dependant on that super ego system that they fight to protect it - and all people belonging to that same system. They also are the first to lose that so-called character and persona, in the hours of desperation, which they once successfully held for years. But then again, it depends to what extent they can go. According to me, the capacity is limitless.

I have noticed that it is an easy temptation to condemn others who do not fit into your value systems at that point in life and an equally difficult task to reflect on this; that what we sometimes see lacking in others is merely a reflection of our own lack of values or character. But the conscious mind being very strong, always resists looking at your own circumstances and actions from a witness perspective.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

I love you

The start of my second novel - which is still in storyboarding process.

I love you and for me it will never be over. Infact, this is just the beginning of my story, and you are in it, no matter what you do or think. That is because you are always in my heart and shall always reside there – in a place which does not consist of anything else but you. Though missing you hurts like a million thorns and I do not think they will ever stop hurting me, I know that despite your absence, I have found the meaning of myself – that I can love you without any rules and conditions, without any borders or boundaries, and without any restrictions or control. I love you in an inexplicable way, which you will never be able to fathom. And that is because subconsciously you choose to look at only what you choose to look at, and you feel what you choose to feel. I will be your past when tomorrow comes for you; but for me, you shall never leave me. I stroke your hair, take your face in my hand and kiss you while you talk - and shall always find you with me, in my heart. I hold you in all the moments, but do feel your absence as well. I feel emptiness inside me and in my life – but yet, I am full. I am full of your thoughts and despite them being one way – I love you. I plead mother nature for another existence in a new life - where there is only you and only me, together, and everything on our side.

Mortals know love as attaining the loving companionship of the one you love and living together in a definition defined by their hearts and predecessors; and acted upon as the magna carta, and think of it maybe as the only form of it. But I know that I shall be the definition and its example of love’s form which maybe unknown to millions – but through words, which do not reach you, and may never reach you – will reach those millions – someday, sometime - maybe long after I have left this existence.

They will know that someone on the face of this planet loved fiercely; someone loved – no matter what. And if then, they choose to call me insane - then I say right now, that I am guilty - and will be.