Sunday, November 8, 2009

About a friend...

Whom I haven’t spoken about until now is the Blue Genius, my medium’s very special friend. Though Thesius likes him, I like him even more. His attitude is head on right and the guy is pretty unique and interesting in his own ways. What I like about him is that he is not the usual desperate-clit-licking guy, very similar to Thesius and myself. No wonder we like him.
Anyways, since Thesius is going through his own plethora of pain, he talks his heart out to BG, and at some moments even I am unable to control his sea of emotional outflow. What happened a couple of days back was while Thesius was chatting with BG online, BG gave some important targets for Thesius as under, ditto as extracted from the chat transcript.

From BG to Thesius:
1 - I won’t utter negative words about my work or the opportunities it gives me for exposure....
2- I won’t undersell myself or my abilities...
3-I won’t work just because I want moolah... but cuz i want to learn enuf to be independent somday..
4- I won’t program my brain that I am not worthy of love of people...
5-I will complete my novel and be the great Marcus that I aspire in my dreams and vision

I love the last point and specifically for the reason that maybe BG thinks tomorrow I and Thesius will be one soul. I don’t know how far will this materialize. Ideally I would like us to be separate because we both complete a circle currently, though, as always, I would like to dominate.
So right on BG, I believe we both are trying to achieve one motive, to uplift Thesius in his battles and I thank you for that. Despite I liked you from the time you met Thesius, I am developing a respect for you which is really something and I think you and Thesius are going to kick it together. Thank you BG, for your efforts and just being there.

Though you and Thesius talk whenever you have time, maybe sometime we can kick Thesius out of his consciousness and we have a drink and chat mano-e-mano. What say BG?

Friday, November 6, 2009


I am an extremist. Sometimes I regret that killing is illegal and at other times I fear having one night stands because I may fall in love with the girl the next morning.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

My medium

My medium is falling through a mental pit of being the most pessimistic creature I have ever known. Well, he may not be the most pessimistic, but I sure think so since I read his mind a lot. Its been almost a month now and I havent re-started on my novel.
I dont deny that he isn't a good person, but why is he so good to people who do not actually matter much to him, is something which I fail to understand (despite knowing the depths of this mind). Dude, you are doing everything possible to make good something which wasn't yours in the first place. Happiness is something which is not meant for you to find out. Happiness is something which will happen to you... but through me. So you just have to ensure that you allow me to takeover and complete my damn novel!
Just chill and go through this hell you're going. Just two words for you... never surrender. By surrendering you lose anyways. Even if you have a 0.1% chance of winning, always fight for it. You might just win. If you don't, there is something more which has lost its meaning over a period of time... Glory. Understand this Theseus... I shall call u that, cause that's where your character should lie and that's where I want you to be, should you survive this war. I am always there Theseus. Dont you worry.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

My medium

I am a little irritated these days. My medium does not get sufficient time for me to awaken within him and allow me to work. His drive is getting a little hazy and he a little pessimistic. I have to find out a way though, I have to learn how to make him strong. Some words in here are just dedicated to him, and I hope he reads these whenever he feels like giving up.

All the best my friend, but you need to grow up! Cheers. 

When u know that you are not strong enough to knock the opponent out, prepare to survive any amount of blows and and be strong within to tire the opponent.

I respect alcoholics. At least they do not consciously do bad things.

Bravery is only a controlled form of a valuable insanity towards something thats worth fighting for.

To have a contended life, always follow this belief system : You never have tried hard enough yet, if you haven't yet achieved what you want.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

I am neither the optimist nor the pessimist. I am the one who tells you that the glass should be full with something else.

I think that I don’t think… somehow thoughts just come to my mind from an intelligent subconscious...the challenge is to get these thoughts to work in the conscious mind, within my brain which is corrupted by society.

When I die and reach the ‘gates’, I shall ask God, “Let us first talk about your inconsistencies. Only then we can come to a conclusion as to which one of us should go to hell.”

The best challenge a true warrior must seek, is to fight an invincible opponent.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Another realisation

I realised something today. The root cause of our unhappiness does actually lie in what we expect from life. Now, I am not saying we must not expect anything out of life, but the expectations from life must be solely concerned around what we can change around us, by changing what is within us. To make more sense, I will just go ahead and say that expectation from anything external to you is futile.
We can expect from things external to us, only which we can truly achieve first - within us. So, the main battle is within and not outside. We cannot control what anyone thinks and we cannot change any other way the world moves around. The challenge is yet to create a world which is ours within us, and then I think the world external to us will start to change, for us, automatically - because its only we who can control what lies within us and how we let the world control it on a macro level, or the society on the micro.
Expectation of finding love is one such thing, and I truly believe that love cannot be measured by how it is reciprocated. It is a single event flowing from one person - and one person only. I dont know if I am making any sense here, but I believe that many of the people think they are in love, but as a matter of fact may only be 'institutionalised' to think that they are mutually serving a greater cause within them. (to be continued)...

Sunday, September 6, 2009

The beginning

Its a sunday and in a few hours, work will begin... once again. I do not quite understand my reason or purpose of starting this blog completely yet, but it is mainly to reach out to you. Its strange that while I still continue to find my main purpose, I know the immediate purposes of any action I take. So, the macro picture is unclear, while the micro is.